Clarity has finally started to return a little bit. I feel calmer, slightly more in control. It hasn't stopped the thinking though. It makes me wonder if I could unlearn all the things I know from life, would it make these feelings go away? Life is just too big, there is so much to take in. At the same time, you are lucky if you can get a handle on what is right in front of you. I'm trying, I really am. It just feels like nothing is that important anymore. I want to find something that matters to me, but I just don't know...

I think it used to be school, but even that is gone now. Is there anything out there for me? Is there anyone listening? Is there anyone...